Introversion

Up to this day, I have currently stayed in Japan for about 2 weeks. My orientation is about to finish and by next week I'll start attending classes. I gotta admit, Japan is wonderful. The air's nice, it gets rainy and foggy sometimes and at the noon the sun shines too bright, but still, I love it. My campus is located on a mountain top and I currently live in a campus dorm right next to it.

So far I've made a lot of friends, Japanese ones, fellow Indonesian ones, and other international students from various countries such as the US, India, Pakistan, etc. I've hung out with numerous people but somehow I haven't managed to get really close with any of them. I love socializing with other people, but I usually don't talk much when I'm in a group filled with people I don't know very well, because most of the time they make small comments on almost everything whereas I haven't yet achieved a strong connection with any of them in order for me to do the same thing. Well, basically in those kind of situations I only speak up when I really have something to say, but apart from that, I just keep quiet and listen to the others chattering.

It's different, though, when I'm on a one-on-one conversation. Since there's only two of us, without any other people making comments, I have the opportunity to speak what's on my mind, so I don't get too silent.

But there are times where I wander off alone just because I don't feel like I fit in to hang out with a group of people; probably because my introverted personality that (still) kind of keeps me from getting close with them. I have always embraced solitude, but I long for company as well.

Those moments got me thinking; is it wrong for me to become an introvert? It's not easy to change my personality because this is who I am; who I was meant to be. At times I wish I could carry out conversations so easily with many kinds of people like the extroverts do.

But then I stumbled upon this article and I realized that self-acceptance is important to lead a peaceful life. I should stop struggling against the fact that I'm an introvert, and make peace with it instead.

So if you're an introvert, just accept that fact and realize that you have many capabilities lying underneath your quietness. Introversion is not a disease that you should overcome, it's rather a challenge for you to strive better.

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