Alone


I spend most of my time alone.

There's nothing to be pitied about

Since I love spending time alone

As much as I love

Spending time with my closest friends

But, see

Anywhere I go

I can never

Fit in

I am not someone

Who lowers my defense

So easily

I am not

An easy person

To befriend with,

let alone being loved

By a significant other.

Probably explains why

I am used

To do many things all alone

Even so,

I enjoy being alone,

And highly value my solitude.

But, sometimes

When these thoughts come

I feel lonely.

And no matter how much

I love being alone,








I don't fancy

being lonely.

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